This is my last semester at ISU...whoa! I can hardly believe it! I can't believe I have been at Indiana State for five years and how I have changed so much during those years! I can't believe I am now pursuing a life I never in a million years thought I wanted to live. But nevertheless, here I am, and I wouldn't have it any other way! Yesterday, I had my interview with Wycliffe for the Discovery Internship. I was so nervous! Naturally, I talked way too much and way too fast. I really want this opportunity to travel abroad so that I can see what its like to be on the foreign mission field. But, if God chooses to close the door of this opportunity, then so be it. The desire to be a missionary hasn't changed a bit. However, the constant thoughts of my inadequacy keep popping in my head and I keep thinking things like "why would God want to use you?" It's true, He shouldn't want to use me. But even though my walk with Him has been so inconsistent, and I am not qualified to be used by Him, I am thankful He does not operate based on those conditions. He has called me, so I know he will qualify me!
In the mean time, as I wait to hear whether or not I have been accepted for the Discovery Program, I will wait and pray and trust. Your will Lord, not mine!
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